trying to keep it up

WARNING: THIS IS A GENUINELY HONEST POST

so life has been no more than an adventure and has for the most part tough. life all together is just a grand adventure filled with excitements and fears but no matter what God Almighty is with us! thank God! anyways back to life. so school right now is pretty much my whole life, and "school" has been good. i have A's in all my classes and i like all of my classes which is always a plus. As far as friends go i kinda feel abandoned by the two girls that i called my best friends. i don't mean this in any offense to my best friends but i feel that they have kinda left me out of a lot because i go to a different school i assume? and i don't feel as welcome when i see them... let alone most people from my old school! i wish that i was still close to them. and i hope that they know that just because i go to a different school doesn't mean that they cant invite me places and because of the fact that i go to a different school my parents are more likely to let me go so there is really no excuse not to invite me to see them. this probably is starting to sound really selfish but i have not been able to make friends that well at Lebanon and none of then are like the ones that i had at east Linn. honestly it is one of the most difficult thing to make a friend that is a girl specifically that is a good person and that you share the same beliefs and the same qualities in life. i thank God for Marshall even though he is a boy:) because it would be a lot different trip without him! my life is not any more important that anyone elses and i don't want sympathy. but this is what blogs are for. right? so for now i leave you with this.